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Lights

  • Dec. 18th, 2010 at 9:29 PM
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I'm finally starting to get into the holiday spirit. It took me a long time and I'm not in the same kind of giving spirit I normally am this time of year. Things seem really off, but I'm doing better. I started taking a new medication (Abilify) last week and after about 10 days, it's doing okay, but I'm a bit agitated - it gives me a lot of nervous energy, but I'm trying to ride it out. I'm hoping that it will go away once my body adjusts to the medication. I am not as severely depressed as I have been recently and I am very grateful for that.



I'm starting to see the lights and welcome the quiet and wonder at life again. These are all great things. I've had a very long week and a very long day and it's been crazy and tiring and terrible and good.

There are a lot of things going on:

- My roommate got a new job. In Pennsylvania. And she's moving out in January.
- I found out that I am eligible for short-term disability through my office, but then found out that only covers people who make 50,000 or more per year and that is not me. And then my HR office told me that they would find a way to try to cover me and now I'm trying to look at all my options. The HR office got back to me today, telling me not to fret and that I will be covered and giving me some instructions. So, apparently I am covered, but I'm a little skeptical.
- Now, I have to figure out what to do about where to live in the next 5 months and whether I want to stay here by myself and, if so, how I'm going to handle that. I also have to figure out what to do with my time and how I will stay active, social, and involved. I don't want to isolate myself, but I also will have an extremely tight budget and I'm not sure I can afford to get out and do much. I'd love suggestions on how to do that, if you have any.

I am at least not a complete mess, right now. I had a great talk with Rev. Nancy today about everything and she gave me such great encouragement. She pointed out the fact that I'm not a complete mess and told me exactly what I needed to hear, which was that I will somehow figure things out and that this could eventually be exactly what I need. I hope.

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[identity profile] annearchy.livejournal.com wrote:
Dec. 20th, 2010 09:49 pm (UTC)
*more hugs*

So how much Abilify are you taking? I'm familiar with it, through DD, but only in very small doses as an adjunct to something else.
[identity profile] cloverdew.livejournal.com wrote:
Dec. 21st, 2010 12:03 am (UTC)
Right now only 5mg, but we may go up on it when I see the psychiatrist again in two weeks. Or we may try adding an antidepressant.

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